see // saw

Change is scary and change is good. In one week I’ll be in the company of a man who means a great deal to me, and I’m terrified and ecstatic. I’m nervous not only for myself but especially for him as he is the one making such a big change in his life by coming to Vancouver, but it makes me think about the necessity of challenge and growth in our lives.

I’m happy with the growth I’ve accomplished just this summer; small lifestyle changes in my diet, sleep patterns, exercise regime, and substance use have culminated towards a much more satisfying existence. I feel like I’m in a good place - which also terrifies me. With school coming up in September and Lachlan’s arrival at the end of August, I’m kind of worried that I won’t be able to keep up with the improved habits I’ve established. Maybe I worry too much, but I know from past experience that consistency is something I have trouble maintaining. 

But I think a lot of what makes change so rewarding is the ability to adapt to the given situation. Right now I’m a mixed bag of emotions but hey, it’s all about the journey. Bring it on.